My name is John Van Wagner and May 30th 1995 after an 8.5 hour surgery I was told I had a menigioma brain tumor. It was benign but it wrapped around my facial nerve and left my face almost completly paralyzed. I had to endure reconstructive surgery and thankfully was able to regain some movement in my face leaving me with only a minor facial droop. The physical healing from surgery took long enough but the emotional healing took much longer. For years I hated to have my picture taken. Finally, with God’s help, I came to accept the way I look. Only recently did I find the Barrow Brain Tumor Support Group. I wish I had known about the group years ago. I recently retired and I am a volunteer for several places but specifically wanted to help brain tumor families so I help The Gray Matters Foundation. My hope is to share my experiences and help other patients and families deal with the emotions connected to this disease.